Sometimes, you need to let your mom win. What do I mean by that? Recently, I moved back to mom's having gone through a divorce, an in-the-rears house sale, and a large financial setback. Being fifty-two and independent for many years of my life, moving back home was something that I kicked and screamed about until the day came where someone bought my house and gave me thirty days to get out and find a new place. Thirty days you think might be a long time, yet when you have three animals, and your finances and credit are in the tank, there really is no option but to move back home, unless choosing to live in my car was some sort of a reality - which it not at all wasn't. So. I sucked it up, sold 90% of everything I had, and without help from movers or anyone, moved into a small room in the back of mom's house, which is where I'm currently writing from - and am beyond grateful for - yet it's taken me a bit to get to a place where I can much more easily...
You have zero control over most of everything in life. The one thing that's challenging for me is letting go of the need to control someone else's emotions - specifically, anger. Why? Because on some level, I take it personally and don't often recognize that their anger isn't about me -- whatever they're angry about, I happen to be the one in their immediate space at that moment, and they use me to lash out at. And I take it personally. And I want it to stop right away, and I want to get the conflict over as soon as possible because I don't like conflict, which in turn then creates way more conflict and unnecessary bullshit that then turns into unresolved emotions that cause damage that never intended to be caused in the first place. The adult thing to do would be to take a deep breath, assess my position, and back off. But. Sometimes, that's a hard thing to do. The shift in my mindset comes with first seeing my flaw because, ultimately, ...